Oct 24, 2009

My first day in the kitchen....

This is not a story; it was actually happen to me. This was my first experience as a cook.

My mother never forced me to do things, in which I have no interest. So I think this is the coz why I had never been to kitchen before that day. My first day in the kitchen was when I was in the two to last month of +2 1st year session. Thou we didn’t have final exams (because the both year of +2 had a common final exam); I was happily stayed at home. My mother has asthma problem. That day she got cough from morning. Even she was not been able to get up from the bed. She called me and asked for handling the total cooking part for that day. After hearing this from my mother my bro(younger) had decided to go for a visit to his friend's place. But i was very confident that I can do that very fairly within as little as time she needed. I had never been to kitchen before at least for cooking purpose but sometime when my mother was cooking I was standing next to her and watching all, how she did so I had a rough idea how all the things can make out. With these little ideas I was thinking that everything was very normal and I can do it very easily. So I replied “don’t worry I can do better than you within a little time.”

I was confidently went towards the kitchen but that happens, what was always happens to me when I was entered into the examination hall. Slowly I was forgetting all, my mind had gone blank. I was not been able to think why and where I was going..!!! suddenly I heard some sounds like, when a king was going for war and his followers saying good luck for his victory…I didn’t realize what was going to happen..But I heard that so clearly, was it for me???No it was in the TV. All were watching Mahabharata on TV.Then I was going to kitchen slowly. From the beginning I was decided that I was not going to call anyone for help, and trying to do all by my own. Then I started, first I poured Dal, turmeric, salt, water in pressure cooker and put it on the gas for making Dal.After sometime I was realized nothing was happening then what I was seeing that the gas was not on fire yet. Then all set as per the program. Now the main problem was I had no idea about how much time needed to make Dal. I was waiting for the whistle to running up. Suddenly the water with Dal and turmeric came out by the whistle with a big noise. I was surprised because I had never seen that happens to my mother when she is cooking. Then I ran to my mother and asked about all happen. She told me; surely I gave more water in it. Then she told me the exact amount of all in making a meal for 4 people (as we are 4 members at home).but still I was confused because i had to put salt as per the quantity and taste of the food. I was very intelligent so I put a small amount of salt, if anybody needs more then he/she can add more in it. The rice, Dal, mix veg curry was ready (luckily I didn’t have to face any other problem in making these three items).now it was the time to make mix vegetables vaza. I had already set all to make this, but still the problem of salt here. Here also my intelligence worked out, I poured as per the vegetables. Then all ready to eat…the food was looking very professional (like someone very close to this profession was made this), nice smell, and color was perfect….I was very happy.All set with in… (Sorry I don’t want to say the time, but it was all over by the time of launch).

Now it was the time to serve all, the food made by me…I was doing all as my mother did.My mother gave some suggestions in between arranging all for the launch. Then all started eating. I was waiting for the comment. First turn, was my father; he said that the food is very good, no one can say after having the food that u make it for the first time…but the vaza is little bit of salty. Then it was my brother, he just smiled and asking for more salt for Dal. And for mix veg curry he added both vaza n curries, and then it had the same amount of salt for both (as one of course). My mother she had no complained. Then it was my turn to taste the things made by my own hand. (Well I don’t know how to cook by using the other parts of the body…).And the food was not as I thought it would be. Very unfair, my all wishes and talks were going to hell. It was like someone put more hot water in to a small quantity of vegetables without salt and spices. The food was like it made for a patient who has acidity (for spices) and Blood pressure (for salt).and about Dal, it was like the Dal were skating in the yellow water and saying”bach gayee yaar, isne jada pakaya nahi”. Whatever my family loves me very much so they had to pay for that by eating these kinds of foods, with giving complements. It was really a bad experience of starting my life as a cook. But the food was not that bad that one cannot eat even…it was eatable.

That’s all how I had started my journey as cook. That was all happen in my first day in the kitchen.

Oct 16, 2009

Silence....

My love

Don’t know why you leave me. Did I do something which u didn’t like? After you my life changes and I just want you to know about that, as I always said all to you. Do you remember………..

……….In a very starrer night, the stars were dazzling and spread their empire on all over the sky because there was no moon to rule over them. The clouds were moving here and there very hurriedly like they were already late for their daily routine. The wind blew up very smoothly. On the top of our roof, I was sitting with you, holding your hands and weaving golden dreams of our future with our sweet heaven like home and loving kids with all love and happiness. We had talked, but the words came from our heart couldn’t be audible to each other. So it seems as if we were sitting silently. But the waves in our heart became a storm, storm of love. The last look of yours said a lot, but I wanted you to say something. I was dying to hear your voice. The silence was all over the atmosphere but our heart speaks a lot to each other. The night said a lot, how two people who were deeply in love can understand words without audio. The game of hide and seek between the stars and the clouds told the emotions of getting close and go far away of two bodies who fall in love and be one soul .

The same night is with me here again. The situation is still the same as that night. But the main difference is that you became silence. I know you love to spent time with me in this starrer night coz you love stars so much. In the darkness of night you love to see the stars in my eyes. I was going to roof with all the memories of yours, the time we shared and spend together, with all those moments, in searching of you. I was waiting for the voice which called me up whispery when we were together. But it won’t happen, my heart went to cry but the time wouldn’t bind within our memories. It simply flies away with all the presences of yours as a living being, from this soil. My heart wanted to talk to your heart, but it was not beating. The silence grasps not only your voice but also the audible language of your heart which I know my heart can never listen again.

I was sitting silently and thinking about you. Suddenly I heard a voice which said all about my dreams, my wishes, and my ambition of being a part of yours. I became happy that you came back to me to make our dreams into reality. I wanted to feel you at least once for staying with your memories for the last breath of my life. I was searching you between the stars, clouds even I was asking to the wind but there was no hope of getting back you in my life. The voice told me that it was not you who remind me those golden moments, it were the silence which was the witness of our feelings, what we never spoke to each other; just felt that words came from our hearts together.

See, how deeply I feel for you, need you in my life for make me full. Without you I am in a great pain, which can never be revealed. Even it’s like a pin pinching my heart each time I take breath. The silence couldn’t tolerate my pain and speaks all about us to me, remind me those time we spent together, the words we never spoke but heard by it, and encourage me to live with those memories as a sweet part of life. After you silence become everything for me. It speaks a lot and makes me engage with your love. Without you silence speaks and I hear, but my heart remains silence forever coz there is no one who could listen and understand the words out from my heart without saying a little bit.

I am started loving it and trying to live with it. This is how my life changes today when I came back from the roof. I hope you will also happy with me.


With love
yours forever

Oct 12, 2009

Love mean to me.....

Love is not meant to get the best from the world. It meant, to make someone best for the rest of the world.

Love is not meant to be special for someone. It meant, to make someone very special from all others.

Love is not meant to insert someone’s happiness in your life. It meant, to delete someone’s sorrow from his/her life.

Love is not meant to happy by seeing the flowers. It meant, to take care of the plant from root to leaf.

Love is not meant to say I Love You. It meant, that you actually mean your words for the rest of your life.

Love is not meant to get your beloved by hook or crook. It meant, to be happy with his/her smile,(even if it comes without you also).

A Wish For my Lovely Parents,On their Wedding Anniversary

I never wish you get the colors of rainbow because it has only seven colors.
I never wish you get all the happiness in life because sadness will follow soon.
I never wish your life becomes as bright as the sun rays, because it’s set to finish by the end of the day.
I never wish your life becomes as pure as water, because it will lose its purity when the outside garbage comes to it.
I never wish you get the coolness of moonlight, because it loses its light in every 30 days.

BUT

I must wish you both are always together in any situation, at any where,
Even if

The colors of rainbow disappear,
The sun sets at the west,
The water loses its purity,
The sadness spreads its empire,
The moonlight goes down.

Oct 6, 2009

LIFE

Life starts with colors, ends with colors. But the difference is that, starts with multicolor and ends with mixing of all colors (black).

Life starts with sun, ends with sun. But the difference is that, starts with rising sun but ends with the sun set.

Life starts with emotions, ends with emotions. But the difference is that, starts with emotion of happiness but ends with the sadness.

Life starts with liquid, ends with liquid. But the difference is that starts with mother’s milk and ends with gangajal.

Getting you my love.....

If it’s a dream
I don’t want to wake up

If it’s a color
I don’t want it to be fade up

If it’s a mirage
I don’t want to get close

If it’s a shadow
I don’t want to switch off the light

If it’s a sound
I don’t want it to mute

If it’s death
I don’t want to get rebirth

If it’s wind
I don’t want to close even a small hole

If it’s breath
I don’t want to give up

If it’s earthquake
I don’t want to be rescue

If it’s fog
I don’t want, sun rises in the sky

BUT

If it’s fire
I want to burn in it

If it’s water
I want to shrink in it

If it’s nightmare
I want to sleep with it for life long

If it’s storm
I want to blew up with it

If it’s dark
I want to leave my shadow

If it’s music
I want to be the wave

DAAG...

Mein bahat sundar thi,jab bhi log mujhe par karke jate the ek baar palat kar jarur dekhte the.Mein wohi apni jagah par bethi sabko dekh kar muskura rahi thi,kiun ki sabki daman mein daag lag chuke the par mein bedaag apne apme khus thi. Bahat garv tha mere maan mein ke koi mujhe chhun nahi sakta, kiun ki meri maa ne mujhe apni anchal ki chhaon mein chupakar rakhi thi.Sabko dekh kar mujhe bahat dukh hota tha kash wo bhi bach jate,bedaag hokar rehejate meri tarha,lekin sabki kismet kahan meri tarha hoti hai.

Lekin kabhi kabhi bahat irsha hoti thi,kiun ki mujhse jada un daag walon ki chahat thi sabko.Par mein khus thi ke mein bedaag hun,to kya hua mein unke saath nahi hun log mujhe bhi to ek baar palat kar dekhte hai.

Dhire dhire mujhe lagne laga ke mere liye maa ka pyaar kam hone laga tha.Wo abb mujhe uss tarha sambhal kar nahi rakhti thi.Phir ek din wo manhus ghadi agayee jiska mujhe hamesha se darr tha.Mujhe bech diya meri maa ne uss admi ko,mujhe ghrin thi uss admise ,usske haath mein gandagi thi,pure sarir se ek ajib si badbu aa rahi thi.Uss raat meri sari tammana or garv ki kabar khodi gayee.usne mujhe daag dar kar diya tha.Mein gharke ek kone mein bethi roti rahi, lekin kya karti waqt ko louta kar bapas to nahi le ja sakti.

Agle din subah mein apne ghar bapas agayee,per mein abb ow nahi thi mein bhi sabki tarha daag dar hogayee thi.Mujhe bhi unn logon ki tarha ek sundar se ghar ke ek beheterin jagah per betha diya gaya.Mein intejar karti rahi abb kya honi hai meri zindegi mein…………………..

Aj mein bahat khus hun mujhe ek paribar mil gaya hai jo mujhe pujti hai.Aj pata chala ke daag dar hone per log jada kadar kate hai.Mere kok mein bal gopal ko lekar jab mein unke ghar pe ayee to mera bahat zoro soro se swagat kiya gaya.sara mahol khusion ke geet ga raha tha.Mein unke puja ghar ke assan me bethi yaad kar rahi thi wo pal,jab wo admi mujhe daag dar karke ye bal gopal diya tha..

Abb mein jaan chuki hun ye daag nahi hai,ye to ziwan ke rang the jo uss raat uss chitrakar ne mere pure badan per lagake mujh per ye bal gopal banaya tha,bahat sukra gujar hun uska,uske bajah se aj mein kisike ghar me puja pane ke yogya hogee hun.Aj mein ek sundar rango se saji chitrakala hun ,kal tak jo mujhe palat kar khali dekhte the wo aj mujhe apne gharme puja ke liye layehe.

Kabhi kabhi kuch daag hamari zindegi kahan se kahan tak le jate hain .Kahan me uss kamare mein ek khali board bethe bethe sabhi chitrakalon ko dekha karti thi or aj mein kisike puja gharme.

Agar ye daag ase kismaat badal dete hai to ye daag mujhe manjur hai.Mein kush hun ase daag ke sath or mujhe garv hai ke mein daag dar hun………………….

HEART....

With you life becomes a mirror which shows the reflection of loneliness.
With you life becomes a light which shows a way to enter without any exit.
With you life becomes the sky which represents all colors but shows none.
With you life becomes a house which can never be a happy home.
With you life becomes a high hill which has no life on the top.
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Why don’t you leave me??
I was asking to my HEART……………….
It replied………
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If I am not with you……………..
You wouldn’t be able to see the reflection to know the meaning of loneliness.
You wouldn’t be able to enter the world of emotions which have no exit.
You wouldn’t be able to know the colors and understand the difference between them and a colorless life.
You wouldn’t be able to know the difference between house and home.
You wouldn’t be alive on this earth to locate a life on the top of the hill.
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I am with you, that’s why you can sense the difference .search the answers, and understand the needs…..

An unfulfiled Dream......

A cloudy day, the sky covered with black clouds, it’s about to rain. Everyone is in a hurry to go to a safer place. A small girl with a doll in her hand steps out from a house to play in the rain. Her mummy asked her not to go outside, but she steps out by her feet’s.
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A sunny day, a young girl is preparing herself for school. She is very intelligent, having top position in class, good looking in her growing age, well behaved, cultured. Everyone likes her so much.
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A sweet innocent girl is going for shopping to buy a dress for her upcoming birthday…………………….
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On her birthday she gets the opportunity to work with a good paying company as a Sr. designer. She fulfills all her dreams by buying a beautiful house with all types of comforts and stays happy.
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Then she gets a suitable and perfect better half with whom her life is running smoothly with one child….Then
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…………….All of sudden the passenger train derailed and the other day a news is coming out in the local news paper
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An woman was dead in the train accident last night…Report says she was in the 8th month of pregnancy…………………………………………….

About me...

Does it really important to know that who am I? Or the question should be why I am? In the process of knowing myself ,the first question arises in my mind .Which one is the main question to be solved to get the meaning of my existence…..
One day I was standing in front of the mirror, suddenly I realized that the picture inside the mirror was not the same that in outside. The entire things were same but still it seems like all are changed. That was the day when I had started searching of myself. From that day I have known a lot of things about me. Knowing about own self is the most interesting research of the world.

Still m searching myself...........