Don’t know why you leave me. Did I do something which u didn’t like? After you my life changes and I just want you to know about that, as I always said all to you. Do you remember………..
……….In a very starrer night, the stars were dazzling and spread their empire on all over the sky because there was no moon to rule over them. The clouds were moving here and there very hurriedly like they were already late for their daily routine. The wind blew up very smoothly. On the top of our roof, I was sitting with you, holding your hands and weaving golden dreams of our future with our sweet heaven like home and loving kids with all love and happiness. We had talked, but the words came from our heart couldn’t be audible to each other. So it seems as if we were sitting silently. But the waves in our heart became a storm, storm of love. The last look of yours said a lot, but I wanted you to say something. I was dying to hear your voice. The silence was all over the atmosphere but our heart speaks a lot to each other. The night said a lot, how two people who were deeply in love can understand words without audio. The game of hide and seek between the stars and the clouds told the emotions of getting close and go far away of two bodies who fall in love and be one soul .
The same night is with me here again. The situation is still the same as that night. But the main difference is that you became silence. I know you love to spent time with me in this starrer night coz you love stars so much. In the darkness of night you love to see the stars in my eyes. I was going to roof with all the memories of yours, the time we shared and spend together, with all those moments, in searching of you. I was waiting for the voice which called me up whispery when we were together. But it won’t happen, my heart went to cry but the time wouldn’t bind within our memories. It simply flies away with all the presences of yours as a living being, from this soil. My heart wanted to talk to your heart, but it was not beating. The silence grasps not only your voice but also the audible language of your heart which I know my heart can never listen again.
I was sitting silently and thinking about you. Suddenly I heard a voice which said all about my dreams, my wishes, and my ambition of being a part of yours. I became happy that you came back to me to make our dreams into reality. I wanted to feel you at least once for staying with your memories for the last breath of my life. I was searching you between the stars, clouds even I was asking to the wind but there was no hope of getting back you in my life. The voice told me that it was not you who remind me those golden moments, it were the silence which was the witness of our feelings, what we never spoke to each other; just felt that words came from our hearts together.
See, how deeply I feel for you, need you in my life for make me full. Without you I am in a great pain, which can never be revealed. Even it’s like a pin pinching my heart each time I take breath. The silence couldn’t tolerate my pain and speaks all about us to me, remind me those time we spent together, the words we never spoke but heard by it, and encourage me to live with those memories as a sweet part of life. After you silence become everything for me. It speaks a lot and makes me engage with your love. Without you silence speaks and I hear, but my heart remains silence forever coz there is no one who could listen and understand the words out from my heart without saying a little bit.
I am started loving it and trying to live with it. This is how my life changes today when I came back from the roof. I hope you will also happy with me.
With love
yours forever
